shopping yesterday

It went badly, because my mother is home, and has nothing better to do than to nag at me. I fucking MISS her working. I MISS not being alone in this fucking house. At the sorority house it gets depressing, because it's twenty people rather ignoring you. And that IS lonely. But being by oneself because the house is literally empty isn't lonely or bad. Because you're choosing to stay in that empty place. I never hang out at my house. I always go to my friend's houses. My house is not a hang out house. It's too formal and the furniture is too nice. You can't throw parties here. It sucks. My room is solely for me and has nothing to entertain people or others. The whole house is kind of like that. Just for us and not a whole lot to amuse other people. Barely anything to amuse me.
And I'd like to go get out and do stuff or walk around, but you have no fucking idea how much 100 degree weather kills that "get up and go do stuff" kind of mentality. The only peace from her that I have is if she goes to bed early. And then I can do what I like, if that something involved watching shows she disapproves of or movies that would interfere with something she wanted to watch, but not if i want to use the computer.
I need a hobby.
Knitting or crotcheting or something fucking mindless like that. Needlepoint.
Not scrapbooking, i'd make too huge a mess with all the left-over paper bits and I don't even take photos. Something where if I put it down it won't be left to scatter all over my room. I'm almost looking forward to rush. O.o Then there'll be no lack of mindless things to do over and over and over. ::smiles::

i went alone to the mall. And I'm not sure if I've ever done that before. I'm fairly positive I haven't. I went to the old one, because the new mall that's closer to my house is sprawled out and I don't know it because it's new and it's also outdoors. It's set up like...a little town or something. Apparently it's the "new thing" in mall design. I don't know who's fucking bright idea that was. "Well you can get right to where you want to go instead of parking and then walking around inside for ages." Oh no, no no you can't. There's parking spaces right out front of the stores, yes, but it's not like you'd ever really get one. You still have to park way far out, and then walk, in the fucking heat, or humidity, or frigid windy weather, or rain, or whatever, now instead of dodging groups of teenyboppers and strollers, you have to dodge the traffic in the parking lot itself, and then the traffic zipping down the cutesy little towne "streets" -all of which will be bumper-to-bumper during holiday time, people backing out of spaces and others screeching into them, AND all the pedestrians who are now confined to the sidewalks.
So.
Call me old-fashioned, I guess, but I want my malls like casinos- indoors, crowded, loud, noisy, where you lose track of all sense of time and wander aimlessly searching for that perfect score.

At any rate- yes, Towne East- the Victoria's Secret is right next to the Hot Topic, which i've always thought was very funny for some reason, so I stopped in the latter first to get some H20 spray for my ear, because I was out, even though ordering it online with shipping is cheaper, and then I went to V's Secret so I could use my coupon before it expired for free underwear.

And i have 3 more for this month. All in all I'm going to get 5 pairs of underwear worth 7.50 free from them. I love it.